Wednesday, October 6, 2010

My Birthday...


I had so much fun during my birthday..

I was supposed to wake up early to go jogging with Rechelle. They had this final exam thing, they had to jog around the acad oval in UP Dilliman. I woke up late. So I missed it, but a still went there any way. I got lost but I jogged to where she was. She gave me a gift when I arrived. i didn't open it. We walked slowly around the campus. It was so serene, so beautiful, even more beautiful because she was there.After that, I brought her to the house for lunch with my family. We took pictures, and lots of them. I brought her back to her dorm. She kissed mi in the cheek goodbye and ran off.

That didn't much but that was one happy birthday. After that day, i ended up with something.
Reasons why I shouldn't be waiting.. Nada..
Reasons why I am waiting...











Indefinite.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Kundiman

I listened to the song Kundiman by Silent Sanctuary.

Kung di man tayo hangang dulo wag mong kalimutan
Nandito lang ako laging maalalay, d ako lalayo.
I love this line because it's true.. hahaha...
If she ever get tired of my company, I won't mind. I won't go far.. I bet we'll still be great freinds.. :D

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Letter in a Lighter Chapter 1


“We don’t have all day Rachelle! The Hundred Islands won’t wait for us you know”, my friend Tina yelled at me as she let her obnoxious boyfriend, Mark, wrap his arms around her waist. I hurried to the docks carrying the heavy cooler from our van containing nothing but beer, all by myself. I’m the one carrying it though I don’t drink. I glanced at the upward and rested for a second after that burst of energy. I admired the cloudless summer sky.

“Yeah! Chuvs is right! The Islands might have a board meeting.” Mark obnoxiously seconded as he laughed boisterously. I got pissed. I glared at him and rose an eyebrow His joke wasn’t even funny. And who in the world calls his girlfriend “Chuvs”?

“That’s enough Mark!” said my other friend, Joseph, stopping Mark in his tracks. “If you wanna help, stop making lame jokes. Be a man and help the girl you ass!” Patrick scolded Mark. I guess they’re both pissed too. Joseph and Mark took over, carrying the load to the docks.

I asked them, “So where’s the boat?” Patrick replied as he was watching his steps towards the docks. “Were going to rent two boats ‘cause one can only carry the load of five people, including the boatman but not including the stuff we’re bringing.” Joseph continued. “A stranger generously agreed to share his boat since no one else but he is riding it. One of us is riding with him, along with our stuff. “

“Please tell me Mark’s riding with our stuff.” I said. Joseph replied with disappointment. “Sadly, he‘s staying where Tina is because she said so. And our load is already the weight of two people. Only one can ride with the stranger.”

“I’ll do it.” Patrick said. I disagreed. “It’s ok, I’ll do it. Stranger’s better company than Mark would ever be.”

I stepped into the stranger’s boat. “Hi!” He greeted as I entered. I smiled and said,” Hello! Thanks for letting us share your boat. Sorry about the load.”

“Everything’s good. You’re welcome.” He said as he smiled and nodded.

I couldn’t help but observe him. He was wearing vintage shades and a plaid bluish shirt. He was wearing a camera bag around his neck suggesting that he’s a photographer. He noticed me looking at him. I quickly looked away.

The boat started to move. I was excited because we’ve been planning to go island hopping here in Hundred Islands for months. I had to eat Pancit Canton for lunch break to save money but it was worth it to be with college friends on a vacation, without our parents. The boat ride was thirteen minutes to the first island so I had nothing to do but text. I sent a group message to our other friends who weren’t able to come. They had a summer affair back in the Campus so they had to stay there Manila. “John, Niks, Erin. Wish you guys were here.” I closed the message and noticed that I was out of bars. The service in that area was bad, apparently.

I heard a clicking sound. I looked below my seat checking if something from our load fell off. I glanced at the stranger and saw him toying with this shiny blue Zippo lighter. He flipped it open and close. “You smoke?” I asked. He shook his head sideways. “Then why carry it around?” I added.

“Just for fun.” He replied. “How about you? Do you smoke?”

“Nope. “ I answered.

“Why not? I heard it’s relaxing.”

“Yah. But it’ll kill you.”

“Precisely why I don’t smoke. We only live once. So why not make it last, right?

I smiled and nodded. That last one finished the conversation but he was still looking at me. I’m not sure of what he was looking at. He was wearing those vintage shades, making it hard for me to see his eyes. I just looked away again to prevent any further exposure from his eyes.

We were nearing the first island. I wasn’t sure what it was called but I think it was the “Mayor’s Island”. The shore line wasn’t that long. I expected that because the Islands aren’t that big. There was a small house elevated near it. The boat man said that the house was the Mayor’s. Hence, the name Mayor’s Island. About a mile away from the shore, the stranger took out his camera. It was a Cannon DSLR with a zoom lens attached to it. He took several pictures of the island. He was displeased with them. When we docked, he took some more. It looked like he was including us in them.

“Guys, I think the strangers taking pictures of us.” I whispered to Joseph and Patrick. Tina overhearing, she said, “Oh? He is?” then she started to pose candidly, looking at the sky and the sea, pretending that she didn’t notice. The guys followed her, flexing their biceps as they carried the load from the boat. And of course, how would it be a candid photo shoot without Mark taking his shirt off and posing beside Tina. Ugh.

I hated getting my picture taken by strangers. It made me feel like I was being stalked. So unlike the guys, I just looked away as I covered my face. The stranger was persistent, constantly finding an angle that he could take a picture of my face. I walked around but he followed.

“Could you please just stop?!” I shouted in irritation. I crossed my arms and decided to face him. But when I turned, he was just inches in front of me. His hands and his camera were in the air, probably preventing his camera from hitting me in the face. I looked up to look at his face, but we were too close so I jumped back and looked down, slightly looking away. “Could you please stop?” I said again, but politely this time.

He apologized. “My apologies, but it’s just a rare opportunity to come across a lady with such a beautiful face.”

“I admire you’re flattery, but I just hate getting my picture taken by people I don’t know.” I said, still slightly looking away.

“I see. I will refrain from taking pictures of you now.” He finished. He smiled at me and I looked at his face and smiled back. I guess he’s not that of a jerk after all. Well, that’s what I thought for a split second. Click. Like a flash, he took a surprise picture of me while I was off guard. That cunning bastard, he acted polite just to catch me off guard. My smile instantly turned into a frown. He removed his eye from the viewfinder and smiled at me wider. “Ugh! Jerk!” I shouted. In my anger, I fast walked away from him. This fast walking lead me to a trail. I decided to follow it. I thought I just walk my anger off. The trail lead me higher and higher up the island. After minutes of walking, I stumbled upon the islands peak.

The view, it was stunning, panoramic. The sun was set so high in the sky, it sheds it’s light beautifully on the Islands. It was hot. Luckily, there was a hut there. Under the hut, I held on to the chains that kept people from falling off the side of the hill and leaned forward. The breeze countered the heat. I closed my eyes and felt it brush against my face. Serene, was the only description I could think of this. So peaceful. So beautiful. Then, “Click. Click.” I got irritated. I knew it was the stranger’s lighter. The jerk still followed me here?

“Beautiful isn’t it?” He said in a whisper. He stared at the distance, like me, admiring the view. Still irritated, I said, “It was beautiful till you looked at it.”

“Now that was uncalled for.” He said, still looking at the view.

“Why do you keep following me?” I asked raising my eyebrow at him.

He stopped looking at the view and said, “For your information, I didn’t follow you. I just came up here for the view. “

“What’s so special about this view? It’s nothing worth walking for. Admit it! You were following me.” I looked back at the view.

“My brother and I used to come up here. He taught me something valuable right here in this spot. He said, ‘Look at this well little bro. Life... and love is like... Well, this view’ ” He looked dazed far.

“Why is that?” I asked inquisitively, regretting what I said about the view.

“Those were the exact words I asked. My brother followed, ‘Well, it’s beautiful, isn’t it? And we share it with those who are dear to us.’ I thought he was turning gay, but what he said next proved me wrong. ‘Well, it’s only beautiful up to a point.’ He pointed at the horizon and continued. ‘See, it all ends there. And someday, we’ll get tired of all that we see. It will even disgust us at a point. But all we have to do is to keep moving. Because beyond that point where everything ends... are far more beautiful views to discover. Far more beautiful views to share.’ I told him that I didn’t understand. He told me I’ll understand it when the time comes.” He stopped and started toying with his lighter again.

I nodded and said, “Wow, that’s deep.” Then I asked, “So where’s your brother now?”

“Oh. He’s off somewhere far with my mom and dad.”

“So why didn’t you come with them. I dunno. My brother just didn’t want me to come with them.”

His brother must hate him. This stranger must have done something bad to his brother. Then I heard a snapping sound. The chain that I was holding on to broke. I was slowly falling forwards. I closed my eyes and screamed. Then I just stopped falling. The stranger was able to grab me. One of his hands held on to my board short while the other hand was holding on to the strap of my bikini top. He used his strength and pulled me back. I put my hand on my chest and tried to slow down my heart rate. I thought I was gonna die. “Now aren’t you glad that I was here?” He said.

Then he gasped. He looked down on where I was about to fall. He seemed to be searching for something. He then put his hand on my ass and patted it everywhere. Then he grabbed something beneath my board shorts. “Aha. There it is.” He said. I realized it was his lighter. It must have fallen there when he grabbed me. I slapped him hard and he fell to the ground. “You may have saved my life, but you’re still a jerk and a pervert!” I said. I took his lighter from my shorts and threw it at him. I stormed back to my friends.

When I got back to my friends, they were already setting up lunch. “So what’s for lunch guys?”

I asked.

Joseph, always noticing me first, answered me. “Well, on the menu today, we an exquisite selection of grilled fish sided with unripe mangoes, tomato, grilled eggplant, and fish paste. We have some beautifully cooked rice. We also have pork cooked in garlic, vinegar, and soy sauce. And for desert, blueberry cheesecake.”

Of course, I knew he was joking. “So you’re saying it’s grilled milkfish, adobo, rice and egg pie?”

“Yeah, but not the egg pie. The blueberry cheesecake was serious.” He took out this container from the cooler full of beer and opened it in front of me. It really was blueberry cheesecake.

We took some picture taking of our own with Patricks digital camera before we ate. We wanted to take a group picture but the guys argued on who was to take the picture. Nobody wanted to miss a picture, so I volunteered. “I’ll do it guys. Sheesh. It’s just a picture.”

I aimed the camera at them and counted to three. Before my lips reached the number three, a click came from nowhere. I thought it was the camera, but then I remembered the perverts stupid Zippo lighter that fell in my shorts.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Now

There's a reason why we love each other now. And we don't know if this is forever.
There's a reason why we are together now. And we don't care if it's not forever now.

Now is all I think about, now that I am happy. An d I'm not sure if there will be a future for us.
Now is all I offer, it's everything I got. But I still wish that there will be tomorrow for us.

Loving is not owning. You can let me go
Lines from "Now" sung by MYMP. It's such a nice song cause it's true for most of us. I think it fits the movie "The Time Traveler's Wife". Its a nice story. It's about this guy that can time travel unintentionally. He meets a random girl who claims that she has known him. She knows he time travels. It turns out that in the near future, he'll be traveling back in time to meet the girl in her youth. There love was strong, not bound by time. The girl loves the guy, no matter where or when he goes off to when he time travels. So she love him indefinitely due to the infinite time paradox the story circulates in. She loves her in the present, indefinitely.


As for me, who is patiently waiting for 22, the future is uncertain. What matters is that I love Rechelle now and she loves me too.. The future may test us and we may fail. But with whomever we may end up with, Rechelle will always be in my heart. I may be contented with who ever I end up with, but no one but Rechelle... will complete me.

-Letter in a Lighter (my new pen name)

Monday, August 23, 2010

August 23

I met with her today. We went to Robinson's (a mall) to look for a place to sit. The general plan was to walk around but she said her legs were tired from all the running they did in their PE. We sat on the outside seats of Mcdonald's. I just bought us sundaes so that we could sit. The first second that she sat down, she brought out a book. I laughed because I envied her sense of responsibility. I smiled as I stared and admired her face as she silently read her history book. In the two hours that we were sitting there, we just laughed and talked about the things that our parents do to spy on us in Facebook. I showed her the lighter that my cousin gave me. I flipped it open and close as I said this line:

Can you see this lighter, it means a lot to me because of many things. First, it reminds me of my cousin because he gave it to me before he left. Second, it reminds me of myself as FireTM, the partner of IceTM. Lastly, it reminds me of you.


She wondered how a lighter would remind me of her. Then I placed it near her and showed what was roughly carved on the back,"PATIENTLY WAITING FOR 22". After the chat, we headed to a terrace-like area protruding from the mall because she said she was cold. There weren't much people there. But we noticed that the handful of people there were lovers. I said in my head,"What a coincidence." We stayed at the edges admiring the sky. When she decided to head back, a couple was kissing erotically in her sight. She looked away because she hates seeing kissing scenes in movies, so how much more in real life?I looked away with her, staring at the wall till it was over. After that, we decided to head home. I walked her to her dorm and said goodbye.

Sunday, August 15, 2010


I remembered my conversation with Janine and the others.

Mark: It's bad to hope for something vain.

Everybody (besides me): Yeah...

Janine: What if the time comes that she decides to love someone else
other than you? Won't you think that you wasted all these years waiting for nothing.

Me: Well if that time comes, I won't care. I won't care if she decides not to love me back. I love her. That's all that matters. And if the day comes that she changes her mind and decides to love me back, she'll find me... then, now, and forever patiently waiting for 22.

-Fire (Always waiting)

I CAN('t) wait....


We're almost there, just five years away.



"I hope the day comes that we can sit side-by-side on a grassy field, with out an inch between us, aimlessly looking at the dusk-lit sky. Where we would fall a sleep with your head on my shoulder, and the dawn-lit horizon would wake us up. -Fire"


Five years may be long, but I've come this far right?

Friday, August 13, 2010

Last Song


I watched The Last Song and found a really nice quote. The leads were shitty but the story was nice.


"Love is fragile. And we're not always it's best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope this fragile thing survives against all odds"


I can't help but realize how true this quote is. If people would only understand how fragile love is, then probably, people would love more than they think they should. If only we do "the best we can". But we never do. Right?

-Gerard Clata (single... but forever taken) :D

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Bear, Bare

This afternoon, Anzel asked us, “Which one’s correct? Is it easy to bear or easy to bare’?” The others said that “bear” was right for that particular sentence but I strongly believed that it was “bare”. I asked our other classmates and they explained what they meant. “Easy to bear” is “madaling tangapin.” While “easy to bare” is “madaling hubaran”.

Monday, August 9, 2010

...


I edited this photo for her because I just noticed it now. I'm in love with a girl that needs to turn 22 before I could officially be with her. But I'm okay with waiting. So right now I am "patiently waiting for 22TM"


I edited this photo for her because I just noticed it now. E
very time I would visit her. She would lay her head on my right shoulder as we walk endlessly inside a mall. I would sometimes move a bit to the opposite side and she would struggle to keep her head from detaching from my right shoulder. In the moments that she rested her head there, nothing else mattered. I was happy. And I don't care what the future holds, as long as I keep doing things like this with her.

Patiently waiting for 22 - Fir3

I realized smomething.. Dream


This afternoon, I accompanied my grandmother going to The Heart Center in Quezon City. I sat down and waited as she had her appointment with her doctor. While waiting, I noticed the same faces passing by the hallway over and over again. I saw them carry briefcases ,and sometimes medical equipment. Then I realized that they were doctors running around the hall doing what they do best, heal others. I realized something else. It's always been my dream to be a Doctor. But I'm not doing well in my subjects, so how can I achieve my dream? Then this stroke of determination went in my head: "To dream is to set a goal. Once you set it, pursue, endure, and be happy". So now, I'll start to get more serious on my studies and probably run around these halls someday.. :D

This story is nice.. :D



So nice.. but so sad.. ;(..

and the reason pala why my profile pic is a girl... guess.. hahaha

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